As a healthy male, it’s normal to have a physical reaction to the advances of someone they find attractive. If a man has no reaction in this situation then it’s abnormal and he should be taken to see a doctor for a check-up.
It was obvious that it was Lu Tian Chen’s first time servicing someone in such a way, his movements were stiff, teeth occasionally grazing. Within those few minutes, there were many times that Tang Feng felt like throwing a fist at the man on his knees due to the pain.
The thing about smart people is that they aren’t born as geniuses. Rather, no matter whatever unfamiliar obstacles they face, they always tenaciously try to tackle it, quickly learning and mastering the rules. This point of view can also apply to lovemaking.
Lu Tian Chen, having experimented a little, was slowly getting the gist of it. He was like an adventurous knight, bravely trying out all kinds of angles and strength. Each time he heard Tang Feng’s sudden cry or gasp, as if being a soldier roused by his queen, he would continue exerting himself, attacking with full fervor.
This was not Tang Feng’s first time receiving such a service. Charles had done this for him before, although that bastard liked looking at him with a teasing eye, enjoying the moment when he lost all sense of control.
In his last life, he also experienced such encounters. It was just that they had never been as intense as this before.
The heat from the mouth wrapped tightly around him was so intense it made Tang Feng arch his neck back and involuntarily grasp at the damp hair of the man between his legs with both hands.The body of a young man was indeed full of vitality and health, but at the same time, it was also easy for it to be taken advantage of by fire and bullying. Just a few months of abstinence was already enough to make this young body a bit too sensitive.
Passion continued to rise wantonly in the Los Angeles night. When Tang Feng glanced over at the window, his vision was flooded by a series of bursting fireworks, wave after wave. Within his mind and body, fireworks were bursting as well, setting his whole being ablaze.
“Ahhh…” letting out a soft cry, Tang Feng’s body was released like a fully drawn bow, shooting out long arrows into the firework filled sky. A buzzing sound lingered in his ears.
Lu Tian Chen let out a breath, propping up his body to look at the flushed face of the man beneath him.
“You haven’t been releasing yourself lately?” A seemingly normal question to ask any other guy was asked.
“What do you think…” Tang Feng felt somewhat tired and closed his eyes. Having experienced its peak, his body was slowly calming down from its high. His chest heaved up and down; a sheet of sweat covered his body. A droplet of perspiration flowed downwards from his forehead, leaving behind a faint water line along his cheek, making it look as if he had been crying.
He was feeling tired and lazy. Truly, he was no different from any other normal guy.
Lu Tian Chen lowered his head to kiss Tang Feng on his forehead, tracing the water mark down to meet his lips.
“I am regretting it.” Lu Tian Chen said.
“Regretting what?” he slowly reopened his eyes. Tang Feng was feeling a bit hot so he started to pull at his bathrobe to loosen it. His legs were still poised in the same position as earlier, it’s not that he did not want to withdraw them back, but because Lu Tian Chen’s body was still set in between them, with the latter having no intention of getting up soon.
Fingers rubbing through the man’s hair, Lu Tian Chen quietly observed Tang Feng in that moment. The man who had just climaxed alone earlier was now exuding an air of indolent sensuality. This was a side of Tang Feng normally not shown to him, just thinking that this part of him had long before been seen by Charles for days to a month’s end made Lu Tian Chen really want to do something about it.
“I’m regretting not getting in bed with you earlier.”
Tang Feng sucked in a breath and started to laugh. Hand clutching his forehead, he chuckled, “So, you intend on sleeping with me now?”
A hand suddenly shot downwards, touching a place that should not be touched. With the slight force of a prod, Tang Feng’s body trembled and he nearly yelped. He glared right at Lu Tian Chen.
“What do you think you’re doing?!” Very quickly, Tang Feng felt a foreign object, separated by the thin fabric of a western suit, rubbing against his thigh.
It was hard and hot.
“Getting into bed with you.” Lu Tian Chen immediately lowered his head again to seal Tang Feng’s lips. At the same time, Tang Feng could hear the clinking of a belt as it fell to the ground. This was quickly followed by the sound of his pants zipper being pulled down.
The blood thirst of the soldier could clearly be felt as he brandished his large sword, poised ready at the door in preparation to break his way in.
“Still want to continue?” Lu Tian Chen paused, hovering teasingly near Tang Feng’s entrance.
“How do you expect me to refuse at this moment? If you want to do it, just do it already, stop being so fussy.” Tang Feng reached out to pull at Lu Tian Chen’s shirt buttons, roughly tearing off the other’s shirt. After all he couldn’t possibly be the only one naked.
The two men were like ferocious wild beasts battling it out at midnight. Lu Tian Chen had long abandoned his usual cool and calmness, only his inflamed passion, speed and strength was needed at a time like this. All rational reasoning should be blown up together with the fireworks in the night sky, burnt until nothing is left in its wake.
In the darkness of the light, a man cried out. It was soon followed by the heavy breathing of two individuals as they merged, together with reverberating moans and the sound of sweaty bodies fiercely colliding into one another with fervent movement.
The major difference between Lu Tian Chen and Charles was that unlike a wild bear with no sense of control in bed, Lu Tian Chen knew when to stop, otherwise they would never have been able to get up in the morning to catch their flight back.
“What’s the time now?” Tang Feng laid dazedly on the bed, pillow supporting his head, with silk bed sheets covering up his lower half. Love marks covered most of his back and chest, shallow enough that they would fade away within the span of a few days so as to not affect his upcoming filming schedule.
The body of a youngster was the best indeed.
Tang Feng sighed for what felt like the thousand and first time.
“Twenty-three minutes past 2 AM.” A freshly showered Lu Tian Chen stepped out with a towel round his waist, half leaning his body over to gently caress Tang Feng’s waist and back. He lowered his head down to kiss the other man’s nape and ear.
The firework show outside the window had long ended, but glow of the Los Angeles nightscape was still as splendid as ever. The two however did not pay it much heed, having drawn the curtains up long before. The room was dimly lit up by the faint moonlight seeping in, casting their shadows to the corners of the wall such that they looked as if they were hugging each other in peace.
Tang Feng looked at the man at his side while slowly blinking his eyes.
“Lu Tian Chen, aren’t you forgetting something?” Tang Feng asked.
“I’ve kissed you, savored you in bed and bathed with you, even helping to give you a massage. So what am I forgetting… is it that we should be resting now?” Lu Tian Chen replied, giving the man another kiss by the corner of his eye and then sliding down his body to lie face to face with Tang Feng. The feeling of looking at one another eye to eye in bed gave Tang Feng a sense of comfort.
“That’s not it.” Tang Feng shot him down.
“That’s not it? Well… let me think again.”
Lu Tian Chen shut his eyes, pretending to be deep in thought. From time to time, he would let out sighs and typical guessing sounds made by people who are trying to come up with answers.
“Have you remembered yet?” Tang Feng reached a hand out to poke Lu Tian Chen on his nose. Finding the action entertaining, he went on to give the other a pinch on the cheek, before gently rubbing Lu Tian Chen’s forehead with his palm, helping him to comb the mess out of his hair.
Once again, the mannerisms of a gentle and mature man reappeared.
Lu Tian Chen opened his eyes and answered, “The relationship between you and Fiennes.”
“Congratulations, you’re right.” Tang Feng raised the corner of his lips. “So, do you still want to know my answer to that or my secrets?”
“If you’re willing to, you can tell me. If not, then you don’t have to.”
“You’re really putting me on the spot. Should I be praising you for your intelligence or for your cunning?” Tang Feng shifted closer towards Lu Tian Chen, planting a light kiss on his lips. When it came to feelings, there were no distinctions between who would push or be pulled, to assert or acquiesce. He will not wait for Lu Tian Chen to come soothe and kiss him, but rather be the one taking the initiative to kiss whenever he felt like doing so.
Instead of staying on the defense, he preferred going on the offense.
“In that case, for the time being don’t tell me about it.” Lu Tian Chen embraced the other man’s waist, replying in a husky voice.
“Why not? I thought you were curious about it?” Tang Feng smiled lightly, extending the tip of his tongue out to lick Lu Tian Chen’s earlobe. In response, he felt the man’s grasp around his waist tighten by a few degrees.
“This is your secret, if you don’t wish to tell me I won’t force you to. Of course, if you do want to, I would be more than happy to hear you out.” Lu Tian Chen replied gently. He now knew why the previously promiscuous Charles was now obsessed with this man. Tang Feng’s performance in bed was a complete contrast to what he had expected; he didn’t show much embarrassment or restraint, but instead openly embraced the pleasures and warmth of his partner.
This would naturally make both feel good. After all, very few people enjoy doing all the work, it always leaves an overbearing taste in one’s mouth, a taste that surely no one could be a fan of.
Tang Feng nodded in agreement, he would tell him when he was ready to.
In regards to his and Lu Tian Chen’s current relationship, Tang Feng could only wish, come the next morning, that this fellow would not make him take responsibility for it.
As much as he may enjoy the warmth of another, Tang Feng regrettably still had no intention of settling down any time soon.
Proofreaders: Rose, Lyrick
“The fireworks are beautiful. Thank you.”
When Tang Feng opened the door, Lu Tian Chen was right outside. He stepped aside to let the other man in. Lu Tian Chen closed the door behind him and locked it under Tang Feng’s gaze.
“As long as you like it.” The simple reply carried more impact than the sweetest compliments especially since it came from Lu Tian Chen, a man known to be logical and blunt.
Charles could shower any random stranger with the most flattering praises. However, with each repetition, the praises lost their meaning. Who knew whether Charles really meant what he said?
Lu Tian Chen was a man of few words but when he did speak, it was in a straightforward manner that expressed his thoughts clearly. More often than not, people were more willing to believe and rely on these kinds of people.
Tang Feng couldn’t help but admit that a simple “As long as you like it” made his heart skip despite his years of experience.
“Why did you suddenly decide to set off fireworks? And at 11:11 at that?” Tang Feng turned around and walked toward the bar. He looked back at Lu Tian Chen, who was taking off his jacket and loosening his tie. “Do you want something to drink? Alcohol or coffee?”
Tang Feng brought out two glasses and filled them half-way with ice. He then poured each of them a glass of whisky. He admitted he was indulging, but he rather enjoyed having the chance to indulge occasionally.
“It’s because today’s a special day.” Lu Tian Chen said while unbuttoning the top three buttons of his shirt, revealing a hint of a toned chest. Lu Tian Chen had a rather well-built physique for an Asian man.
If not for his cold expression and his sharp personality, Lu Tian Chen would definitely be more popular. However, Lu Tian Chen’s personality meant that he had high standards for his other half. Having only a beautiful exterior wasn’t enough to satisfy someone like Lu Tian Chen.
If the other party wasn’t someone especially outstanding or someone of strong mind, it would be difficult for them to stand beside Lu Tian Chen and not feel pressured.
Tang Feng glanced over Lu Tian Chen before walking over. He handed a glass of whisky to the president who deliberately brushed his hand against the actor’s as he accepted it.
Sitting opposite from Lu Tian Chen, Tang Feng asked “What’s special about today?”
Tang Feng tilted his head and glanced at the fireworks outside the window. The spectacular display must have cost a fortune.
When he glanced back, he noticed Lu Tian Chen staring at him. It was an earnest gaze. Despite the dazzling fireworks behind him and the glittering night scene of Los Angeles below, it seemed as if Lu Tian Chen only had eyes for him.
At that moment, Tang Feng relived his past life when he had heart disease. He could feel pressure on his chest and a throbbing pain deep in his ribcage. It wasn’t the unpleasant kind of pain though.
Not wanting Lu Tian Chen to notice something was off, Tang Feng raised his glass and took a big drink. He’d already had a few glasses earlier. He could feel his head becoming hazy and his cheeks heating up. He was definitely on the brink of becoming drunk.
“I’ve been thinking over why it seems you’ve become a completely different person after losing your memories. At first, I truly believed it was because you wanted a fresh start. However, a broken vase can’t become an antique even if it returns to the furnace. Similarly, an ignorant, willful, and childish person can’t suddenly become mature, calm, and indifferent.” While speaking, Lu Tian Chen’s eyes did not leave Tang Feng’s.
No wonder Lu Tian Chen was a businessman. He was definitely a force to be reckoned with at the conference table.
Even Tang Feng felt a bit pressured from such an intense gaze. If he looked away or if his expression wavered, Lu Tian Chen would know something was off.
Fortunately, Tang Feng had no plans to evade the question. He’d never planned on leading a false life from the start.
“You’ve said that a lot. But you haven’t answered my question yet. Why is today special? Is it because it’s the first time I’ve gone out with three different men? Or is it because it’s Fiennes’ birthday?” Tang Feng took a drink and smiled.
“11:11. Don’t you understand what that means?” Lu Tian Chen replied mysteriously.
The actor shook his head. He truly didn’t know what 11:11 meant.
“Single,” Lu Tian Chen supplied.
“Huh?” Tang Feng stared at him blankly.
“November 11th is Single’s Day. The reason I set off the fireworks at 11:11 is to celebrate the last day of you being single.” Lu Tian Chen’s reply perplexed Tang Feng even more.
He was single. That was right. When did he stop being single?
Tang Feng confusingly stared at the other. Contrary to his normal calm, the doubtful look he had on his face made him look rather adorable.
Staring at that pair of bright and confused eyes, Lu Tian Chen was struck with how beautiful they were. He didn’t know whether it was because Tang Feng’s eyes were beautiful to begin with or if he had started thinking Tang Feng was beautiful no matter what after falling in love with the actor.
It didn’t matter in the end. As long as he liked what he was seeing.
“I don’t understand what you mean. You’re acting really strange today, Lu Tian Chen.” Tang Feng set his glass down and furrowed his brows.
The second he finished speaking, Lu Tian Chen leaned forward and kissed him on the lips, a simple and fleeting brush. Then, as if nothing just happened, Lu Tian Chen sat back down in his spot.
“I think the reason you called me over is because you have something to say to me,” Lu Tian Chen said.
“You kissed me.” Tang Feng was caught off guard by the sudden change in topic. If Lu Tian Chen was doing it to get his attention, then he was a little too successful.
Who in the world would be capable of discussing secrets with someone who’d just kissed you out of nowhere?
“Yes, I did,” Lu Tian Chen said.
“Are you not even going to explain? You just kissed me!” The more Tang Feng learned about Lu Tian Chen, the stranger and more interesting the latter became. It seems Lu Tian Chen wasn’t as old-fashioned and boring as he initially appeared.
“I’m not used to sleeping alone.” The topic drifted away once again. Tang Feng was simply incapable of following Lu Tian Chen’s train of thought.
“Then why do I remember you sleeping by yourself all the time before? My god, I’m losing my mind.”
Tang Feng didn’t know if it was due to the constant change in topics or the alcohol, but he could feel himself losing his hold on his logic and calm. They sprouted wings and were flapping to fly away, all the while waving and saying goodbye to him.
He rested his hands on his forehead and shook his head. “Enough, Lu Tian Chen. Tell me what you want. I feel like my head is going to explode.”
“Your head won’t explode.”
They’d landed on another strange topic.
“I was making a comparison!” Tang Feng glared at the other. Lu Tian Chen didn’t reply, he simply stared back at the actor.
“No matter how much you stare at me, I won’t turn into a flower.” Unable to stand Lu Tian Chen’s gaze anymore, Tang Feng stood up to cover the other’s eyes. To his surprise, Lu Tian Chen wound an arm around his waist the second he got out of his seat.
By the time he had his hands on Lu Tian Chen’s eyes, the latter had already pulled him into a hug, bringing both of them down onto the couch.
Lu Tian Chen was a businessman, but, as he had already mentioned before, he was also a man.
From the minute he’d confessed to Tang Feng, Lu Tian Chen had already switched from being a businessman to simply being a man.
He leaned forward to kiss the actor again. This time, it wasn’t a simple brush against the lips. There weren’t any fancy techniques to his kiss, but the force of his kiss was enough to make Tang Feng feel as if he were being invaded. It was a kiss that spoke of Lu Tian Chen all over.
By the time his brain had caught up to the situation, it took Tang Feng ten seconds to finally realize that he was being kissed by another man.
No. It was more accurate to say that they were kissing because Tang Feng was also responding.
Perhaps he had been holding himself back for too long, or perhaps his logic had flown out the window, or perhaps it was even because he wanted to let himself go and truly indulge tonight, but Tang Feng gave in and accepted Lu Tian Chen’s kiss.
The president’s mouth was fresh and minty; he had probably brushed his teeth before coming over.
When Lu Tian Chen pulled his bathrobe open and moved down to kiss his collarbone and shoulder, Tang Feng understood.
Everything had been planned beforehand. Lu Tian Chen probably started planning how they were going to spend the night together while they were still tomb sweeping.
November 11th was Single’s Day and today was supposedly the day he stopped being single. But just because they slept together didn’t mean that he had stopped being single.
Lu Tian Chen noticed that Tang Feng was lost in thought. Out of mischief, he reached down between Tang Feng’s legs. The sudden touch jolted the actor out of his thoughts and made him kick out at Lu Tian Chen.
“First time. My mistake.”
Tang Feng rolled his eyes and glared at the other. Soon, his expression changed to one of surprise as he watched Lu Tian Chen move down and open his mouth.
It was truly a crazy night.
Proofreaders: Jinny, Lyrick
“Doctor Harvey, are you here today to see Fiennes?”
Gino unexpectedly ran into an acquaintance who had arrived carrying a bunch of white roses. At age 40, the corners of his eyes had already started showing small crow’s feet. Nevertheless, he looked handsome and refined, and his clean and fair hands revealed a life of privilege. His manner of speech and bearing also indicated his good upbringing.
“Yes, thank you for coming today to celebrate his birthday.” Harvey smiled politely, and went forward to put down the white roses, his expression turned rather dry.
Gino step forward to ask: “Doctor Harvey, what’s wrong?”
“Those red roses…”
“Oh, those three bunches of red roses are from my friend. He said today was Fiennes’ birthday, and that a person like Fiennes should be given red roses.” Thinking that the other thought that red roses were too shocking, Gino hurriedly started explaining. His usual impression of Tang Feng was that he was a rather conservative person. He never would have expected that the man’s way of thinking would be so unusual as to bring red roses to tomb sweeping.
Doctor Harvey let out an “Oh”, the shock in his eyes gradually dissipating, only leaving behind a slight layer of regret and melancholy.
“Your friend is quite the intuitive person. While he was alive, Fiennes’ favorite flowers were roses.” Harvey smiled bitterly, “Please give your friend my thanks, Gino.”
“Of course, that’s not a problem. He’s standing right there… huh? They were right here.” Gino pointed at where Tang Feng had just been, but the shade under the tree had long since been abandoned. Tang Feng, Charles, and the rest had already left some time ago.
“They probably returned to the car.” Gino apologetically told Harvey, not feeling like anything was wrong. “I’ll introduce you to him next time, he’s my costar. We’re currently working on a film together. He’s quite an exceptional man.”
“Sure.” Harvey smiled.
Gino and Harvey said a few more words to each other before saying their goodbyes. After Gino left, Harvey remained standing in front of Fiennes’ grave, his gaze not leaving the three bunches of red roses.
It had to be a coincidence, right?
Gino found Tang Feng and the others in a small coffee shop nearby. After visiting Fiennes’ grave today, his mood had improved a lot. In the past, he had never had the courage to visit Fiennes’ grave. When he did actually go visit, he suddenly felt lighter and more clear-sighted.
While they ordered coffee and some desserts, Tang Feng silently ordered a piece of his favorite chocolate lava cake. There were a bit too many calories in it, but since today was his birthday he decided he had an excuse to indulge himself a little.
On the outside, it looked no different from a regular slice of cake, but when your fork pierces the outer shell you’ll discover its soft, sweet and fiery heart. Eating it will make you feel elated and worry-free.
The only bad part was…
“Who was that man just now, Gino? You seemed to know him well. Oh, I know, he likes mature men, am I right?” Charles tried to start a quarrel with Gino, wearing an expression that said “I know what it is”. From Tang Feng’s perspective, Charles seemed bored senseless and was looking for something to do.
Gino coldly snorted, and took a sip of his coffee. Ignoring Charles’ provocation, he directly told Tang Feng, “That man is Harvey. He was Fiennes’ attending doctor while he was still alive. I only knew him after Fiennes’ had passed, but he’s a respectable and upstanding person, with a stable career and income, and a beautiful family. Actually, Fiennes’ funeral was all taken care of by him.”
Tang Feng continued to eat his chocolate lava cake and drink his coffee. He was thinking of where he could go later to pig out. Of course, he wouldn’t be the one to pick up the bill.
He appeared calm, but in the end he ended up eating two whole cakes.
Everyone had dinner together that evening and later visited a tea house. Afterwards, the four grown men headed together to the hotel Lu Tian Chen had booked. Lu Tian Chen had booked four rooms, without any complaints from Charles. Tang Feng wanted to be alone that night, and very bluntly kicked the others out so that he could have the room to himself.
Facing the splendid lights of the Los Angeles night, Tang Feng soaked alone in his bath tub in front of the full length glass windows. Lighting up the incense and playing some relaxing jazz music, he slowly closed his eyes and leaned back until he was entirely submerged in the bathwater.
The water gradually cooled off. He felt his hands and feet start to cool and soon after it was as if icy water had seeped into his heart, his chest becoming tight. He still remembered the feeling of his death, as if he had fallen into ice water. Falling deeper and deeper, the pressure pushed down on his heart. It was the kind of pain that almost tore him to shreds.
His breathing grew urgent as his hands and feet grew cold. Immediately, he became flustered, tense, and muddle-headed, his body covered with a layer of cold sweat.
Maybe it had only been one minute, or perhaps it was a long time, but eventually he lost consciousness from the intense pain in his heart.
No, it was more accurate to say that he had died.
“Ah!” shouted Tang Feng as he suddenly snapped out of it and sat up in the bathtub. He gulped down large breaths of air after being suffocated for so long, chest pounding violently.
There was a dull ache in his chest. He reminded himself that he would never again experience the same heart wrenching and lung splitting pain.
Leaving the bathroom, he put on a white cotton bathrobe. After Tang Feng walked back into the bedroom, he opened his phone and saw it contained a text from Lu Tian Chen. Seeing the text he smiled, that guy was staying in the room right next door and yet he still sent a text. Tang Feng had no idea what was going on in Lu Tian Chen’s mind.
After hesitating for a bit, he still chose to open the text and look over the contents.
“At 11:11 PM, stand by the French windows” Tang Feng looked at the time; it was 11:03 PM, just eight minutes away.
He first poured himself a glass of wine, then pulled a chair up in front of the French windows and sat down. There was still two minutes until the time Lu Tian Chen mentioned.
What did that guy do? It couldn’t be that he had arranged to set off fireworks for him, right?
Taking a couple gulps of wine, Tang Feng’s cell phone rang while he was still in thought. The display showed that it was Lu Tian Chen. Tang Feng smiled while picking up the call.
After Lu Tian Chen’s confession, he had started sending Tang Feng small gifts like fresh flowers and exquisite desserts. He also sent him honeyed texts every day. When they met each morning, Lu Tian Chen would show him a rare and tender smile, in addition to an especially refreshing “Good morning.” It was a very traditional and romantic gesture. Perhaps it wasn’t too exciting, but at least it wouldn’t annoy anyone.
“I’m reminding you to pay attention outside, in case you missed my text.”
“What are you planning?” Tang Feng responded.
“It’s time. 10, 9, 8, 7…” Lu Tian Chen started to count down from the other side of the call.
When he got to one, Tang Feng looked outside the window. It was as he expected, countless dazzling fireworks blossomed in the horizon. Red, white, blue… fireworks of every color dyed the dark blue skies a different hue.
Tang Feng had witnessed this scene in movies countless times already, but this was his first time on the receiving end of such a particular gift.
It was one thing to see it in a movie, it was another to personally witness it in one’s lifetime.
Tang had to confess, this time he really was happy and touched.
When a person is strong and mature, others will often forget that they too are also made of flesh and bone. People who are strong on the outside will still feel pain and hurt, but they may not be used to showing it. People are accustomed to pitying and helping those who call out in pain, forgetting about those who have gotten used to bearing its weight.
In this world, there is no one who will reject your love and concern for them. They will only care for whether your feelings were heartfelt or insincere.
The sound of the fireworks seemed right beside Tang Feng’s ears. He looked up at the splendid sky and started to smile. This birthday was not so bad.
“Do you like it?” asked Lu Tian Chen.
“Mm… Very, very old-school, but it’s not bad.” Tang Feng replied, holding back his laughter and nodding, his hand half supporting his head.
The other side was silent for a bit and just when Tang Feng thought that Lu Tian Chen was going to hang up, the man said, “Open the door.”
“It’s too late.” Tang Feng replied.
“Today is Fiennes’ birthday.” Lu Tia Chen stated.
“So what?” Tang Feng didn’t know why Lu Tian Chen would bring that up. He slightly tensed up, was he discovered? But even if he was, it didn’t matter since he didn’t mind telling others about it, as long as they could accept it.
“Why don’t you tell me about the relationship between you and Fiennes?”
Since the day he had brought up Fiennes, Tang Feng knew that this day would come, sooner or later. After all, after his rebirth, he lived his life by his own terms, without any resemblance to the former Tang Feng. However, he hadn’t anticipated that Lu Tian Chen would connect him so quickly to Fiennes. The man’s sharp senses couldn’t be underestimated.
“Come to my room.” After saying that, Tang Feng hung up the phone. He sucked in a breath of air while he looked outside at the fireworks that were still blossoming. He didn’t know if he would reveal his secret tonight.
Proofreaders: Rose, Lyrick
The weather was clear, the winds were gentle, and the sun was bright.
Sunlight spilled onto the dark green grass, dappling it in a soft light. The air was filled with the faint scent of fresh grass and flowers. Everything appeared peaceful and lovely.
Today was Fiennes’ 38th birthday. Faithful movie fans from all over the world gathered, one after another, at Forest Lawn Cemetery in Los Angeles. They carried posters, DVDs, or movie cards from Fiennes career. Candles were lit around Fiennes’ grave and fresh flowers were laid upon the grave. Uniformly, they all gave their blessings to the deceased movie star.
No one was noisy or made a racket. The movie fans that had arrived frequently gazed at the photograph of the man that was placed on the gravestone in a daze from anywhere between one to five minutes. When they awoke from their daze, they smiled even more bitterly.
As some fans left more would arrive to pay their respects.
The man in the photograph had a smile at the corner of his mouth. His eyes hid his mirth, as if everything that he saw in his eyes could be described by four words: Gentle breeze, light clouds.
Fiennes’ life had been like a giant mountain, constantly weighing him down under it. He could only treat everything lightly to live well, why should one make things difficult for themselves?
While he was alive, Fiennes couldn’t be considered greatly handsome or charming. Due to his natural illness, his skin was slightly pale, and his body was not great either. Luckily, he slowly recuperated and practised Tai Chi, allowing him to travel around the world to shoot movies and attend events. He unfortunately lacked care when he was younger and lived through a tough time when he grew up. He couldn’t make up for these things when he later became wealthy.
The man’s lips were very pale, pale enough to be sickly, yet you wouldn’t consider Fiennes to be someone sick. In front of you he would always speak with assurance and composure, his dark pupils bright enough to make hearts tremble.
Tang Feng stood in front of his gravestone and thought that he had really lucked out. After his rebirth, not only was he no longer ill, he also became younger and more handsome. Although he didn’t think he was ugly before, he occasionally did think about whether he would look better if his nose was a little higher and so on.
The person asleep in the grave was actually the same person as him, but with some differences.
Since he was to sweep his own grave (to pay respects to a dead person at their grave), Tang Feng bought his favourite flowers. Rather than lilies or daisies, it was a bouquet of red roses. When he had brought the roses to the cemetery there were many people who, one after the other, raised their brows at him. After all, how many people would bring roses to a cemetery?
But Tang Feng liked them, he really liked red roses.
He had seen a movie when he was younger, due to age he could no longer remember the plot or title. The only thing he remembered was that the male protagonist had gifted a bouquet of fiery red roses to the female protagonist. The female protagonist, upon receiving the flowers, had been moved to no end, in excitement and happiness.
From then on, the red roses were stored in the youth’s memory. Even though the youth who was lacking in familial love and affection had been able to make it successfully, he still frequently longed for someone to present him a bouquet of passionately blooming red roses.
He wanted to have everyone leave his funeral smiling, and also wished that he would receive red roses by his gravestone every year.
Tang Feng went forward to put down the red roses and then returned to Gino’s side. Someone nearby recognized Gino, however, they did not disturb the celebrity on this occasion.
“Gino.” Tang Feng quietly called out. Ever since Gino arrived at the cemetery he had been in a state of absent mindedness. His stared at the man’s grave without moving at all.
At Tang Feng’s call, Gino finally went forward to place a bunch of daisies on the grave. Tang Feng appropriately drew back to stand beside Charles and Lu Tian Chen. He knew that Gino had something in his heart to speak to Fiennes about.
A few days ago Tang Feng had personally heard these words from Gino.
Hoping that this opportunity to pay respects could unravel the knot in Gino’s heart, Tang Feng lightly inhaled. The other two men had moved to stand beside a nearby tree.
“You two aren’t going over?” Tang Feng continued to stare at his grave, and asked the two people at his side who were like the two generals Heng and Ha (the names of a pair of door gods for Buddhist temples).
“Eh… alright.” Charles twitched out a smile and somewhat reluctantly went over with the red roses. Lu Tian Chen also followed after. Only because Tang Feng had purchased the red roses, the other two also requested red roses. As it is only natural for them, they didn’t think there was anything improper about purchasing red roses.
They walked over and placed the fresh flowers on the side of the grave. Charles casually looked over at the picture of the man on the gravestone. A sliver of recognition flashed across his eyes, and he subconsciously sent a glance at Lu TianChen. The latter was also looking at the photograph, deep in thought.
“You have the same feeling, right?” Charles quietly spoke with the person next to him.
Looking away from the gravestone, Lu Tian Chen looked towards Charles and asked “What feeling?”
“Don’t play dumb, I’ve known you so many years, I already know what you’re thinking from your expression.” Charles softly clicked his tongue, he knew that it was a little beyond belief, but he truly did feel something. Fiennes Tang’s eyes in the photograph had an astonishing similarity to Tang Feng’s glance.
Now Charles understood why he was originally attracted to Tang Feng. A young man, yet with the gaze of a mature and experienced man, anyone would have been attracted.
Lu Tian Chen lightly chuckled, and said in a questioning manner, “I remember that you are an atheist.”
“Hah, I’m only saying that Fiennes and Tang Feng have a similar expression in their eyes, not that they are the same person. Maybe Tang Feng is Fiennes’ long lost younger brother.” Charles paused, thought that it didn’t really sound right, and added more, “Or his father.”
“Father?” Lu TianChen looked at the man in the photo. At a handsome and mature age, he was worthy of being an international superstar. From a photograph, you could sense Fiennes’ charisma.
Only, Lu Tian Chen had a hard time connecting Fiennes’ and Tang Feng’s relationship as father and son, it was too strange, this feeling was very odd.
“Look, if Tang Feng and Fiennes have some sort of blood relation, then everything can be explained. Gino likes Fiennes, it could also be said that Gino likes Tang Feng’s brother or father. That’s why Tang Feng was affected after he heard that, and then he even came here to take care of Fiennes’ grave.” Charles thought that he had captured the clues, and eloquently gave his analysis.
“A famous celebrity, aged close to 40, with no girlfriend or children, that doesn’t make sense. Lu Tian Chen, do you agree with me?”
“You can really gossip.”
“Don’t tell me you don’t want to know why Tang Feng pays special attention to Fiennes. That’s enough, don’t tell me whether you want to know or not, recently you’ve been especially attentive towards Tang Feng. Standing ten meters away from you, I can still smell the scent of you in heat.”
After placing the roses on the grave, Lu Tian Chen turned and left, remarking to Charles “That’s because you are in heat yourself.”
Turning around to gaze at the already departed Lu Tian Chen, Charles softly laughed. That’s right, he was also in heat right now, moreover, the partner of his heat was the same person.
Charles didn’t immediately return to Tang Feng’s side. Instead he walked to stand beside Michael Gino. With both hands in his pant pockets, he spoke to him in a low voice.
“Don’t go and bother Tang Feng, I know you like him, and that he is similar to Fiennes in many ways, but let me tell you buddy, don’t just start liking Tang Feng because of this, he’s already claimed.”
“Tang Feng is Tang Feng, Fiennes is Fiennes, this is a simple fact, I can keep them separate in my mind. As for who I like, it has nothing to do with you.” Towards the man he had once been in a fight with, Gino didn’t speak in a nice tone. From the first moment he saw Charles, he didn’t think that this person was any good.
Taking a smoke from his pocket and lighting it up, Charles slowly let out a mouthful of smoke. “Heh heh, what a childish way of thinking. Who you like has nothing to do with me, but your family won’t allow you to like a man. If they find out that you like a man and make things difficult for Tang Feng as a result, then I will have something to do with it.”
The corner of the man’s mouth hinted at a cruel smile, “You two will have no results and no future, if you want to make trouble then find someone else. Listen up Mr. Superstar, I’m not threatening or warning you, and I’m not scared of you or your family. Even if you continue to like your Fiennes, and Tang Feng, he’s still not yours.”
“Don’t tell me he is yours?” Gino was a little angered.
Charles immediately laughed, raising up his jaw: “That’s right, he’s my person.”
“What can you give him? I’ve seen a lot of people like you, once you have a new love interest, you won’t want the old lover. I won’t allow you to harm him.”
“That’s hilarious, you won’t allow it? Do you think you are his ruler? Listen up, saying those words shows that you don’t understand Tang Feng at all. He is the strongest and smartest person I know. He’s not someone you or I can easily harm. Patting Gino’s shoulder, Charles turned to leave while spitting out one last thing by Gino’s ear, “Remember what I said.”
All of this was seen by Tang Feng. Looking at the man walking towards him, he asked “What did you and Gino talk about?”
“Just some talk between men.” Charles winked at Tang Feng and laughed roguishly.
“I’m not a man?” Tang Feng raised a brow.
“You’re my man.”
Another line that made others speechless, Tang Feng breathed in deeply. Forget about it, he couldn’t out speak a gangster.
They stood nearby to wait for Gino. Tang Feng saw Gino turn around and prepare to walk towards them, but at that moment the young man seemed to have seen a familiar person. He walked two or three steps then stopped again.
The newcomer was a mature man who looked to be around forty, give or take a few years. He had brown hair and dark green eyes, with a refined temperament. Gino walked over and started to chat with him, clearly he knew him.
When Tang Feng saw this man he was slightly shocked, he saw a person that he didn’t really want to see.
“You’re what?” Tang Feng didn’t know how to react. What did Lu Tian Chen just say? He was jealous?
“Do you need me to repeat it?” Lu Tian Chen drove calmly down the street, and said in the same calm manner, “I’m jealous.”
“Oh.” Tang Feng finally understood. He leaned back in his seat and mulled over the deeper meaning of Lu Tian Chen’s words. “If it’s too , then you can stop at the next intersection and I’ll go buy you some sweet bread.”
“I don’t need any.” It was another direct reply.
“Then what do you need?” Tang Feng laughed. He knew what Lu Tian Chen meant, but the president was hard to understand. He wasn’t sure what Lu Tian Chen was trying to get at between the words.
Lu Tian Chen slowed down and parked near the sidewalk. He rested his hands on the steering wheel, but turned his head sideways to stare at Tang Feng. His dark eyes were like a pair of black holes, pulling Tang Feng’s eyes toward him.
Tang Feng suddenly understood what was going on. He immediately shook his head and waved his hand in protest. “No, no, no. You’re definitely joking. My god, please tell me you’re just joking around.”
“I don’t like jokes,” Lu Tian Chen said.
“That what are you doing right now?” Tang Feng could feel a headache coming on.
“I’m confessing.” Despite all his wishes, Lu Tian Chen still uttered the two words he didn’t want to hear.
Tang Feng covered his ears and sighed. What was going on these past few days? Was it national confessing week? He’d thought that Lu Tian Chen was merely curious and treated him well simply out of business appeal. Even if Lu Tian Chen did like him, it was the physical kind of like. Despite that, Lu Tian Chen hadn’t made a move on him at all over these six months.
All right, Tang Feng had to admit he was wrong.
“You mean, you like me. Do you want to sleep with me or something?” Tang Feng asked directly out of curiosity.
“I won’t sleep with people I’m not interested in,” Lu Tian Chen said while his scrutinizing gaze drifted downwards.
Tang Feng felt as if Lu Tian Chen was undressing him with his eyes. After scanning over the actor’s body, Lu Tian Chen nodded to himself, as if saying he was satisfied with what he saw.
“That just now…I felt that was sexual harassment.”
“You can think of it that way.” Lu Tian Chen’s unperturbed acceptance made Tang Feng swallow any reply he might have made.
He opened the window for a breath of fresh air. Otherwise, he was going to burn up under Lu Tian Chen’s intense gaze. Tang Feng rested his forehead on his hand and gazed at all the cars passing around them.
He wasn’t a narcissist, but he had wondered about what he would do if Lu Tian Chen suddenly fell in love with him. Of course, when that thought had appeared in his mind, he laughed at himself for how ridiculous and unrealistic it sounded. But here he was, faced with a confession from Lu Tian Chen.
“Then, what do you want to tell me?” Tang Feng asked.
“I want to be together with you.” It was a straightforward answer, fitting with Lu Tian Chen’s personality. Tang Feng rather liked that part about the man.
Lu Tian Chen was different from Charles. The latter might appear like a dumb bear on the surface, but was a sly, old fox underneath. Charles could smile and pat you on the shoulder like an old friend while stabbing you in the back with a sharp knife. Afterwards, he could even put on a worried act and swear to take revenge for you.
Lu Tian Chen was the exact opposite of Charles. If he didn’t like you, then he simply didn’t like you. He didn’t bother hiding his displeasure and openly voiced his thoughts. It wasn’t necessary to question the sincerity of his actions. He wasn’t the kind of person who would stab you in the back if he truly liked you.
A blunt personality made it easy to offend people, but Lu Tian Chen had the assets to back up his straightforward disposition.
It was the reason why Tang Feng was willing to collaborate with him, and also why he trusted the man.
But faced with Lu Tian Chen’s confession, Tang Feng smiled and shook his head. “No, that’s not possible.”
“Why not?” Lu Tian Chen then added with conviction, “You don’t like Charles.”
“No, I do like him. He’s a happy-go-lucky kind of guy, and also a ticking bomb at that. But don’t drag him into this conversation.” Rather than listening to Charles’ confession, Tang Feng would much rather hear Lu Tian Chen’s. While crafty, Lu Tian Chen at least lived according to a set of principles.
“Look, you disliked me a lot before, right? You even sent me over to Charles because of how much I annoyed you. Of course, I admit I was also at fault. But between the two of us, you will always be the one holding the reins. You have power and you have influence. I don’t have any of that, because I am in an inferior position.” Tang Feng was truly showing his age with his reply. Normally, no one would be able to remain so calm after hearing a confession and start analyzing the situation instead. Tang Feng concluded, “At the moment, I am incapable of forgiving you or accepting your feelings.”
Lu Tian Chen narrowed his eyes. He understood the hidden meaning in Tang Feng’s words.
The actor was incapable of accepting his feelings at the moment, but that meant there was still hope in the future.
“I have plenty of time. I don’t mind gambling on you,” Lu Tian Chen replied.
“All right. To be honest, I’ve never had the pleasure of enjoying someone chasing after me.” Tang Feng smiled at Lu Tian Chen. “I’m guessing that it’s rare for you to deliberately pursue someone. Am I the first one?” Tang Feng’s smile was a bit too gleeful.
“That’s right, you’re the first.” Lu Tian Chen made a mental note to himself about the all too obvious dig. He was going to take everything back plus interest in the future.
For someone to realize their feelings, there often needed to be an external stimulus. For Gino, he’d only realized his love for Fiennes after the latter’s death, and the realization sent him down a spiral of hopelessness.
Lu Tian Chen was much luckier in that respect. He’d been slapped in the face with evidence of Charles and Tang Feng spending the night together. Then, he’d watched Gino and Tang Feng act out an intimate scene with his own eyes. After been hit with so many stimuli, Lu Tian Chen finally came to a realization. He’d been doubting the subtle feelings he had for Tang Feng, trying to decipher whether it was love or admiration. Now there was no doubt about it; he understood his feelings all too well.
He was in love with Tang Feng.
It was the first time in his life that he felt a stirring in his heart for another person. For a newbie at love, Lu Tian Chen had an amazingly difficult time understanding his own feelings. Thankfully, his natural intelligence applied to topics in romance as well. Otherwise, who knew how long it would take for him to understand his own heart.
“Can I ask you a question, Tang?” Having just come clean with his feelings, Lu Tian Chen tried calling the actor with a nickname.
Tang Feng nodded. “Yeah, you can.”
“What do you think of me?”
Tang Feng thought for a moment and glanced at Lu Tian Chen. The president was young and handsome, and excelled in every field imaginable. However, Lu Tian Chen’s excellence was also his weakness.
“Your looks are fine. Your face is handsome, and your body is well-built. The air about you is also quite refined. You work hard, yet you also understand when you need to take a break and enjoy life. You aren’t a single-minded workaholic, but you’re too pragmatic. I know you like to be efficient, but…success in the workplace can’t fill or replace what actual emotions can bring you. Do you understand?” Tang Feng explained.
Lu Tian Chen suddenly chuckled. “I understand. You’re like my college professor, always going on and on about the principles of life and how we should live.”
Lu Tian Chen had struck the bull’s eye. Tang Feng glared at the other man. So what if he liked talking in principles? He had the right to do so at his age!
You bunch of brats!
Lu Tian Chen understood what Tang Feng was trying to say, but what about Charles?
The sly, old fox would never easily voice his thoughts to Tang Feng, much less Lu Tian Chen. He had his own plans.
Like normal, Charles welcomed the other two into the house when they returned. He tried to take advantage of Tang Feng in his usual way, and then had a drink with Lu Tian Chen and chatted about work.
Everything seemed peaceful. But as the saying went, it was the calm before the storm.
That weekend, three different people invited Tang Feng to go out, but he rejected all of them.
One of them was Charles. He wanted to go out on his yacht with Tang Feng. They could fish, sunbathe, and go diving.
The second was Lu Tian Chen. He wanted to attend an art exhibition with Tang Feng, and then have a romantic dinner afterwards.
The last invitation was from the little girl Tang Feng came to know recently, Annie. Whenever she had time, Little Annie would call and chat with Tang Feng. Today was the first time she invited Tang Feng to visit her house. Unfortunately, Tang Feng had already made plans with Gino.
They were going to visit Fiennes’ grave today. Tang Feng had given a simple reason for the trip: Fiennes was his idol.
He was going to visit his own grave. It sounded strange no matter how he thought about it. He’d heard that his grave was at the Forest Lawn Memorial Park in Los Angeles. It was one of the most beautiful cemeteries in America. Situated near a mountain range, the cemetery had green grass and towering trees. It was a beautiful environment. Many celebrities had been buried there, including the King of Pop, Michael Jackson.
It sounded great to Tang Feng. After sweeping his own grave, he could go visit Michael Jackson while he was there.
It was a two-day trip if they were heading down to Los Angeles. It meant that Tang Feng and Gino would be spending a night together. Upon hearing that, Charles immediately called off his plans to have a party aboard his yacht. Likewise, Lu Tian Chen also canceled his plans to buy a few paintings at the art exhibition.
Fortunately, Annie wasn’t coming along.
Despite that, the two-person trip had somehow become an outing for four.